being unwounded or not

My choice would be it would be better to die by myself because then I still have the chance to live for however long I have. And I would rather die too because then I would die whatever way that I wanted too. Instead of just laying on a table feeling colder and colder after one surgical group left the room. Ok for instance look at the clappers they can choose whether or not they want to die or not and obviously they do decide and they do but my point is that everyone should have the right too wish to be unwound or die on your own, lev he wanted to be “tithed”. So this is why I want to die on my own just like a clapper(except being all suicided in all).